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I'm probably gonna try to spend less time online after today. I spend far too much time on here, and both my parents have been after me lately because of it.
At the same time, I'm really not sure what I can do with my time. Half the time when I'm on here, it's just so I can talk to someone, or because I'm waiting to do such. Many of the people, it'd be harder to try to call or talk to in person, either because of distance or just not knowing when they'd be the most available. And maybe this is no real subsitute for human communication. I mean... I KNOW it's not. But I have been trying to hang out with some people more often lately and I should try more and.... I just don't know.
It also kind of sucks that my parents always get on my case about this when things are already not going my way. I mean... it's June and I STILL don't have a job yet and I'm scared that this is gonna turn into last summer all over again, and I put on a good 10lbs over the past year and I need to get it off again and sitting around here won't help but I just don't know what to do and I need to get a job so I have money and... *sighs*
Maybe I spend more time on here when I'm already depressed? *shrugs*
I need to get more hobbies. To learn how to do something new. To find something that can actually consume large portions of time that I ENJOY doing. Because all my parents want me to do is clean, and I'm sorry, but it's not overly appealing. Yes, I have to do it still, but I don't want to spend my entire summer doing that.
I'm starting to feel myself slipping again. Maybe it's just my hormones speaking (I'm on my period right now, and things often get rather... weird around this time. Boys, I don't expect you to understand this at all. =P)
But I need more things to do and there's nothing to do around here and I need a job but nowhere seems to want me and I should get out more resumes this week but... I'm just starting to feel worthless again and.... yeah.
I don't want last summer to happen again.
I don't want last year to happen again.
Last weekend was so much fun, but now I feel down.
I think I needa significant other dark chocolate a box of awesomeness some hugs right now. =P
I'm sorry for being so... depressing. I needed to get this off of my chest and.... yeah.
If anyone wants to do stuff, or has any ideas of (preferably free or relatively cheap) stuff that I can do with my time, email me or comment me or call me or something. Preferably stuff that is legal, g-pg13-rated, and no drugs or alcohol. =P Bonus points if it will make me lose 10lbs or land me with free moneys. =P
At the same time, I'm really not sure what I can do with my time. Half the time when I'm on here, it's just so I can talk to someone, or because I'm waiting to do such. Many of the people, it'd be harder to try to call or talk to in person, either because of distance or just not knowing when they'd be the most available. And maybe this is no real subsitute for human communication. I mean... I KNOW it's not. But I have been trying to hang out with some people more often lately and I should try more and.... I just don't know.
It also kind of sucks that my parents always get on my case about this when things are already not going my way. I mean... it's June and I STILL don't have a job yet and I'm scared that this is gonna turn into last summer all over again, and I put on a good 10lbs over the past year and I need to get it off again and sitting around here won't help but I just don't know what to do and I need to get a job so I have money and... *sighs*
Maybe I spend more time on here when I'm already depressed? *shrugs*
I need to get more hobbies. To learn how to do something new. To find something that can actually consume large portions of time that I ENJOY doing. Because all my parents want me to do is clean, and I'm sorry, but it's not overly appealing. Yes, I have to do it still, but I don't want to spend my entire summer doing that.
I'm starting to feel myself slipping again. Maybe it's just my hormones speaking (I'm on my period right now, and things often get rather... weird around this time. Boys, I don't expect you to understand this at all. =P)
But I need more things to do and there's nothing to do around here and I need a job but nowhere seems to want me and I should get out more resumes this week but... I'm just starting to feel worthless again and.... yeah.
I don't want last summer to happen again.
I don't want last year to happen again.
Last weekend was so much fun, but now I feel down.
I think I need
I'm sorry for being so... depressing. I needed to get this off of my chest and.... yeah.
If anyone wants to do stuff, or has any ideas of (preferably free or relatively cheap) stuff that I can do with my time, email me or comment me or call me or something. Preferably stuff that is legal, g-pg13-rated, and no drugs or alcohol. =P Bonus points if it will make me lose 10lbs or land me with free moneys. =P
