For what it's worth...

When people around me fight, I hardly ever end up taking sides. And people are usually fine with that. I worry about everyone on both sides, and often see the validity in both sides' point of view. I want everyone to be ok whenever this happens. But it hurts to see it again and again and again, you know?

And I do drift away from people. And that hurts too. Sometimes by taking no side I end up forgotten, but never disliked. And I miss them if that happens, but at least it happens on its own terms, and I'm not hurting someone or getting hurt.

I just wish that people wouldn't fight in the first place. I don't want to make someone hate me. I really don't. I often put up with things that make me uncomfortable (so long as it's not overly so, I know when to say no), because I don't want to upset people.

I just want people to be happy.

I just want things to be ok.

Why can't things just be ok?




And once again, I stay on the outside. The neighbour.

I live up to my nickname sometimes, don't I?