Happy meme -- Day 1

I've been tagged for this twice now, I figure I might as well do it. ^^:


1. Post about something that made you happy today even if it's just a small thing.
2. Do this everyday for a week without fail.
3. Tag 8 of your friends to do the same.


Today is my first day of freedom, my last exam was yesterday.
Got to go Christmas shopping, and that involved going to the game/anime/sci fi stores in anime. It always makes me feel great to go in there because, well, even though most of the people there are more gamers/sci fi people than otaku, I still feel like I'm with the same kind of people -- like I belong.


Tagging....

caitlinneko, chickwithstick, human_nosferatu, inuyashanohime, lotus_blosom28, sirius_dragon, thandi, two_powers.

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Being tired and hungry at the same time kinda sucks.

I should probably just go to bed now, but I'm afraid that my dad will come up and turn the tv on, and the television is very audible through the wall. Which, after eleven years, is still annoying. Moreso in the past year or two actually. :S

I want some spaghetti or a grilled cheese sandwich. And dad isn't commandeering the kitchen like he's been for the past six hours. (I was wrapping presents before that...) But..... I'm too tired to cook now. :S


I hate it when I get the urge to talk to people that I don't actually want to contact. When I say that, I mean, like, because I know they might be doing something else, or that the chances of them responding when I want them to are slim to none. Like tonight... I've kind of wanted to call someone, but did not for various (I think) valid reasons.

...I hope if I ever get a flatmate/roommate, they don't mind occasoinal cuddling. But then, I probably won't bring it up too often 'cause I'll be afraid of being in the way/being too touchy-feely/something. Which is how I often am, though it does vary from person to person.

But the occasional friendly cuddle is really nice, and kinda relaxing, isn't it?


Of course, i could also get an so. but that requires, errr.... getting an so. which I, as we should all know by now, am not good at.

...you know, the other day, someone implied that i was a slut? XDDD yes really. They didn't know me at all, it was based on this imagery thing, which, in all honesty, i feel I might have missed something at teh beginning of. (I could get into the imagery I had during it, which was vivid in my mind and I think completely different than what it's supposed to be, but =P)
The funny thing is, apparently, I confused the heck out of the guy with one of the part of that thing. Because there are supposed to only be two answers, but I came up with a third.
But no, he didn't, like, say anything bad about me or anything. But the implication was there nonetheless, and, well..... yeah. XD Me = total promiscuous, sleeps-with-everyone-and-their-cousin type of person. Right? Right. >.> <.<

Then again, that guy also seemed a bit weird. :S ...I really think he was trying to pick one/all of us up or something, and that.... just................
..............
(If you're wondering how I came to this conclusion, caitlin, just search the strawberry thing online. :S)
Of course, I could be horridly wrong. But yeah. I just kinda felt... uncomfortable. I actually wanted to leave that conversation a fair amount earlier than we did, but I didn't know how to bring it up without sounding rude. :S

...and I was getting a little tired/drained after leaving TOTAL CON ATMOSPHERE, which is kinda amusing as that made me go from one mode to another with a quick trip to the bathroom in between, apparently. Though, really, I was feeling myself slip into it during the conversation.


...maybe I'm not cut out for romance outside of my own head. XD


Overall, DTAC was fun, but there were moments that I'll admit were funner than others. I felt myself keeping on worrying where people were, and where my stuff was. And at times really felt like a fifth wheel. Which is fine, and I'm used to it, but still isn't really fun at all yes. XD Feelings like that remind me of camps and such, when I'd be with my friends, and feel like I could walk away and no one would care. ...and sometimes I would. And sometimes online when I'm talking to people and suddenly everyone is silent and sometimes that's a good thing, but at other times it's really kinda... lonely. But it depends on exactly when, I guess.

Wow, this is sounding cynical, I'm sorry.

I know I'm sometimes on the making-someone-feel-that-way side too. And I hate it when I realize that. :S It's really awkward trying to keep everyone in on a conversation sometimes.

Also, i worry too much.



....wasn't I saying about sleep?

I guess it's time to follow through on that.... maybe I'll have grilled cheese for breakfast.

Sorry for the random ramblings. >.<;;;;;;