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I got two valentines in the mail today.

One my grandparents, and one from kurotoshi. All i have to say is awwwwwwww <33333333333


Also: Unproductive day is unproductive. Dunno if I'll get everything done I Wanted to this week, but meh.

Maybe I'll start my Sailor Fuku of Fail tonight. Though it scares me that I'd be doing it without a pattern. (Doing it in rough first, obviously.)


Might go the the library and get out RENT tomorrow. And return a few things. Because I've never seen it and I know they have it. And it's on my list of things to watch.

And I should try to finish re-reading Dramacon tonight.

(DID SOMEONE SAY FINNISH?) *is shot for lame pun*

*needs to start THAT soon, too. XD*

*also should watch more anime. Because that's what cool people do, right?*

*also also should work on room sometime this week. Because not having to tread carefully in order to not step on things in certain parts of room.... isn't the best idea ever*


PS: HAPPY TUESDAY

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dambolis's request(s)

dambolis is a wonderful girl. She added me, I think, because we were both Canadian FMA fans, or something like that. But then we started talking, and found that we had a fair amount in common. In a lot of ways, she reminds me of myself four or five years ago. Except I wasn't into RP-ing then... and some other random changes.

And then I met her at MTAC for the first time in person last year. And she's a wonderful person offline as well. <3 She's very cuddly. And so am I. XD So it's not bad in the least. ^^

And now it's numerous cons later. Sometimes I'm a little to big-sister-ish probably, I get weird "I'm my Caitlin's keeper" moments when she's been staying with me. XD But shhh... don't let her know I said that.

And... ummm yes. Love you~!


When I was very little, a little girl named Tiffany lived beside me. She might have been older than me, or the same age, I don't remember. But we were good friends and playmates. But she moved when I was still really little, and I have no idea what happened to her. I probably wouldn't recognize her if I were to bump into her anywhere, because I literally haven't seen her in that long.

When they moved out, a family with three children moved in. The eldest was a boy (Ryan, I think), the middle was a girl (Courtney), and the youngest, another boy (Brett). My sister and I became fast friends with the younger two of them, along with the brothrs that lived at the end of the street... especially the elder boy Alex. ...I don't remember if I went to the same school as any of them... I know that Courtney and Brett went to the Catholic school though. Alex and Grant (the younger brother) might have gone to Lincoln Ave with me though.

As I got older, I became more reclusive though... and went out to play less and less. By the time we moved, and I was nine and a half, ...i didn't do it much at all anymore, and never... replaced those near-me playmates, though my sister did.

When I was in kindergarten, there were four of us who were pretty good friends. The two boys were a year older than me, and had the same innitials, and the other girl was the same age as me. Steven, Sasha, and Misha. We used to play Ninja Turtles. The boys always played the same ninja turtles, but us girls alway fought over who was April. But yeah. I was just in that school for kindergarten. My mom teaches there, so I never have lost complete contact with them.... more I don't talk to them, but my mom always hears about Steven... but yeah.

At school #2... I had a few groups of good friends over the years. The closest two to me... probably were Austin and Caitlin. Austin... was a lot like me in many ways, gifted, and a little eccentric. Caitlin... I was a little too clingy with her... she actually told me off once, 'cause I always wanted to play with her, I would wait her to come back from going home for lunch..... and she had other friends too. ^^;

School #3. There was a girl named Samara who I became friends with, and we would play... kind of house but kind of not. XD I also became good friends with Catie and Vanessa, and they remained close friends of mine at school #4, though we drifted in grade 8 since we were in different classes.

In high school.... I had a circle at school that I would hang out with and was friends with. But rarely was anything done outside of school... sometimes I'm not sure if that was for the better or not.

I also became very close with some of the kids at my church. And at church camps. Giftie quadrangle in particular. (Yes, I said quadrangle, please don't kill me.)

To be honest, I don't know if I ever had a best friend in that amount of time. I used the term before... but.... Everyone always seemed to have someone who was closer to them than me. Not to say that I was treated second class or anything. Very rarely would anything like that happen, don't worry. I don't think I was ever really used. I've just always been a little socially inept. =P

During highschool.... the internet hit.

I was in grade 12 when I decided to join my first RPG. And I met one of the most awesome people I know. She knows who she is. And she... changed my life, I think. And it's partially her fault that I spend as much time online as I do. XD But I love her so much. <3

Since that time... I've been in other RPs, and have made other online friends. Almost all of them are through that, it seems. XD Though certainly not all. Some of them... some of them I don't think I'll ever lose completely. Others... have faded. Just like offline.

But there are a lot of wonderful people online. Even if there are also a lot of people online who are jerks. ...I've kind of been lucky in that... I don't think i've come across too many. Though i know it's impossible to tell what a person is life offline by how they are online.
But I think i've come across a lot of awesome people. And I cherish them.

Offline, since starting university, I've developed a circle of friends as well. Pretty much all otaku. XD Sometimes they frustrate me, for their own reasons.... but everyone does that to others sometimes, right?
There's one person in particular that I've become very close to, and I hope I never lose her. I hope I never lose anyone. But it happens. That's just part of life, I guess.

That's actually a major fear of mine. I've been through this, I know the patterns. I'm coming to the end of a stage of my life again, which means that things are going to happen. Friendships are going to change, and new ones will hopefully be formed. And I'm scared of losing the ones I have right now.

There are a few I'm sure will never really end now. If they were to, they would have years ago already. But others.....

We'll see in a few years, ne?

But yeah. I love my friends so much. It... my life, socially, has never been an easy one. And it's partially my part and partially the fault of others, 'cause you can't have a social life without the cooperation of at least two people, including yourself, right?

And I cherish them. I said this a little while ago, but I need to say it again. Because it's true. I really do cherish my friends.

...and there are some I haven't mentioned, and I'm sorry. And yes, I know I stopped using names halfway through. that... kind of was intentional.... I didn't want to leave anyone out. But.... yeah.


And it was interesting writing this. I actually cried a bit....
I've noticed patterns, some good, some bad, some... just there. Some in my behavior, some my friends', some in my friends. And... it's just very interesting.
...and this could probably have easily been twice as long and full of me being emotional about various things, but most of that... really isn't necessary right now, or might not even be appropriate. :S So... I think I'll leave it at this.

dambolis, I hope this is ok. ^^