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Fiiine, I'll do it too, since so many of you have.

(1) Post a list of up to 30 books/movies/anime/TV shows/video games/etc.
(2) Have your f-list guess your favorite character from each item.

1) Digimon Adventure Koushirou Izumi (guessed by lelola)
2) Yugioh Ryou Bakura (guessed by lelola)
3) Witch Hunter Robin
4) Ouran High School Host Club Haninozuka Mitsukuni (guessed by lelola)
5) Card Captor Sakura Yukito (guessed by lelola)
6) Sakura Taisen Reni Milchstrasse and Kanna Kirishima (Guessed by zemira)
7) Azumanga Daioh Chiyo-chan (guessed by ai_lopez)
8) CATS Quaxo AKA Mr. Mistoffelees (guessed by ai_lopez)
9) Lord of the Rings Pippin (guessed by ai_lopez)
10) Axis Powers Hetalia Finland/Tino Väinämöinen (guessed by lelola
11) Fruits Basket Momiji (guessed by lelola)
12) Tales of Phantasia Klarth Lester (guessed by ai_lopez)
13) Tramps Like Us
14) Wicked
15) Phantom of the Opera Meg Giry (guessed by zemira)
16) Kyou Kara Maou
17) Téléfrançais l'ananas (guessed by lotus_blossom28)
18) Yakitate Japan
19) Chobits Sumomo (guessed by zemira)
20) Ranma 1/2 Azusa (guessed by zemira)
21) Les Miserables Gavroche (guessed by ai_lopez)
22) Harvest Moon: MFMT Cliff (guessed by ai_lopez)
23) Harvest Moon: FMT Manna (guessed by ai_lopez)
24) CLAMP School Detectives
25) Lucky Star
26) + Anima
27) Sailor Moon
28) Chrno Crusade
29) InuYasha Miroku (guessed by ai_lopez)
30) Wolf's Rain Toboe (guessed by zemira)


...trying to stick to ones where I'm not REALLY trying hard to pretend I have a favourite (ie: FMA or La Corda d'Oro) And some of these DO change over time, to no surprise. But shhhh. =P



Also: I actually had the urge to clean today! @.@
...even though I should be studying/sewing... my room is a mess, so cleaning it a bit is important too.....

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Body image is an interesting thing.

For me, I don't hate my body. At all.

I wish that I weighed a bit less... I'd like for my stomach to be smaller....
It would be healthier, which is good, because diabetes runs in my family... and I've been through all of this before.

And, the cosplay thing. Would look better for most costumes, and would take up less fabric. XD
...and maybe I wouldn't have to alter it five bazillion times. Though knowing me, I probably would anyway. XD And... I've been through this too.

And there are costumes that I think work better because I'm a little overweight.


What's bothering me for some reason right now is stretch marks. ....it kinda bothers me knowing that, even if for some reason i end up having the ideal body in the future, I'll probably never feel comfortable in a skimpy two-piece due to stretch marks. ...though at the same time.... I doubt I'd ever want to wear... anything... skimpy either. XD as it is, I was amazed when I found out I could pull off a bit of cleavage. Which........... is not gonna happen too often anyway. XP *far too conservative in clothing, and kinda likes it that way*

...and then I'll end up on What Not to Wear or something, and they'll badger me about not being at all sexy and for wearing flats when I'm 5'2. And I have no interest in wearing heels on a regular basis, even if I AM short.

...I like being short....



I felt like I was being a productive, good daughter today. Which feels good. Though I didn't really talk with anyone much today....

...but...

I'm still scared of being a diva sometimes. And far too conceited or..... something......

...and I'm also somewhat scared of being too overbearingly mothering to my friends. Because... I care and worry, and I know that I can go overboard.
...and I'm cuddly, and I know that's part of it too.
In my Victorian lit class last year, we talked about different female stereotypes. I know where this part of myself fits in there... but it bothers me to think about it in that terminology. And not because it's anti-feminist or anything. Trust me, this stuff isn't bad at all, that way. At least not compared to... a lot of other things.
But at the same time... half of it always feels like it's just me saying clichees and feeling far more detached than I should be.

...so I don't know what I am.

I know that I want to be there for my friends, and to give them love when they need them. (In the non-sexual sense, thank you. =P) But... sometimes I can smother, and sometimes I can be far too.... fake and detached. ....and that's not good, is it?


Hahahaha... maybe this is my tiredness talking. I haven't slept quite properly the last few days.


......and Estonia just was mentioned on The Simpsons. *amused*

Oh Hetalia, what you've done to my brain....


But yeah, today's been pretty good overall.
First exam's Saturday. It's music, so I'm not actually worried about it at all. at all. as in, I've done really good all semester with little to no studying. I'll probably do the practice test tomorrow, but that's about it. It's composition anyway... and a good portion of it... is just mathematically choosing the right stuff. XP
Plus, we get keyboards to fool with to make sure stuff sounds right. =P


And then I get to have... what very well might be my final meal on campus. And then get into cosplay and go to Librarycon, as it's apparently been dubbed.

But yeah, I should sleep now. Get myself in a good sleep pattern now so that i can have good sleep tomorrow before my exam on Saturday.

*hug*