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*breathes*

Mom's being overbearing again. She's not trying to. And I can see and understand... and even respect that. But I'm feeling suffocated and trapped, nonetheless. But I think I'm in a no-win (trivial, but nonetheless) situation right now.

I think she's trying to figure out why my mood's like this today. And there's actually a few reasons, more like minor things piling up than anything.

For example, mom wants me to go out with her fora bit this afternoon. I'm telling her I can't. Or if I do it has to be really quick, and mom's pushing for it, but I have work because my brain could not wrap around doing anything more than being lethargic yesterday, and although I've done reading already I'm paranoid that it's going to be the same today. And I already backed out of one set of plans for today, hence why I WANT To stay home. I don't want to have said that I don't have time just to be dragged out by other people.

There's more things. Little things, nothing major at all. But it's just adding up and eating me up.... and getting into emotionally no-win situations in the home-sphere while the school sphere moves chronologically forward.

But yeah.

I just need to take a few deep breaths, and go on.

There's just too many little things getting to me. Nothing actually worth getting upset about, it's just piling up. And I didn't get enough sleep last night, which is my own fault.... actually was flailing over stuff and fangirling and such in a long conversation on msn.... which was wonderful but I need to really pay more attention to when I get off so that I do get enough sleep. *fail*

Probably were enough things without the less sleep than probably needed, but... not sleeping right never HELPS. ...so yeah. ^^;


So don't mind me. I'll just be flailing in this corner and attempting to get stuff done.