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Starting to get the urge to post on here again.

Which is probably a good thing. I've been needing to have a place to talk for a while and... have been neglecting this as an option.

Also I found some interesting people on here and am debating interacting with them, but I don't want to come off as too stalker-y or anything. And somehow this seems like a bigger deal than tumblr and the like because this is all creation and not... 85% reblogging others' content as opposed to creating one's own.

There's, like, feelings and stuff here!!!!!


Then again, I find words more powerful than images sometimes, so while I find tumblr amusing, areas like this are a much better match for me as far as self-expression goes.

Ahahaha I just need to stick with something and actually let myself properly express myself.

Yeah, that'd be a good start.

Cosplay and Timing and Life Plans (oh my!)

I'm debating whether or not to start on my costumes for Anime North.

On the one hand, I'm making upwards of 6 costumes, and I have to have at least my share done before the week prior to the con, because the other three CAN'T be finished until then (being not for me and all).

On the other hand... I do kind of hope that I'll manage some body changes between then and now, and I'm not sure if I want to let the costumes in/out. Starting after my birthday's the other option, but that gives me only a month of costume intensity, and that always ends in a panic.

I suppose there's also buying the fabric and sourcing everything, doing some preliminary drafting, but not starting any final drafts until then? ...that may be a good solution actually.

Maybe.

I also need to start applying to jobs before my contract actually does run out. Because that's the responsible thing to do. I'm still in deep debate as to whether I want a job right away or not. A break would mean being able to actually have time to visit friend[s] and have the time around AN that I want for everything. But I'm more likely to be hired for something awesome if I'm willing to start right away, if I'm not mistaken, and.... I don't mind the idea of working in an awesome job over any length of time.

It scares me, not being able to plan ahead at all right now, because so much is up in the air. I have tentative plans, and I'm looking forward to them, but I can't give any certainty or solidity to them. It's not something that haunts my nights or anything, but it gets me tense and frustrated when it's brought up sometimes, because I like having an idea of where Im going.

Ah well. The tribulations of being a 20-something fresh out of school, I guess.

The jobs will come. The time for experiences will come. The life will come and the love will come. I just need to do some work and get myself headed toward it first.

My hope is for all of this to be settled within the next five years. I'd like to have a comfortable level of stability for a 30th birthday present.