10 things

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zemira tagged me on this ages ago on DA. So I suppose I'd better do it.

RULES
1. post these rules
2. each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
3. at the end, you have to choose and tag 10 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. no tag backs


1) I've been ahead a grade since kindergarten. Due in part to this, I can be slightly obsessive about ages. I don't actually care about ages that much, but I do. That is... I find it interesting, but I find it interesting onto itself and don't think it needs to impede on anything else? If that makes any sense whatsoever.

2) On a similar note, generally, the existence of an answer is usually more important to me than what it is. I am a very curious person, and like to know about things, but I'm very open-minded and easygoing, so when it comes to life/things involving opinion/things that don't have a "correct" answer (ie just about anything that isn't a math test or trivia question), I'm fine with just about any answer so long as its a valid one.
The lack of answers bothers me a lot.

3) I obsess very easily. Once things get in my mind, it can be hard to get it out, whether it's a song or a ship or a series or a thought or whatever. Sometimes it can lead to awesome creative outbursts. Sometimes I can annoy everyone around me (and I'm sorry). Sometimes it can make me a prisoner in my own mind, unable to enjoy anything happening around me because my thoughts are eating away at my core.
I'm scared that I have an addictive personality due to this. Which is why I'm glad that I don't like alcohol and am clean and whatnot.

4) Throughout highschool and into the first year or two of undergrad, I had dematographia. In other words, I welted VERY easily. ...I actually miss it, because I loved drawing on my arm with a pencil. That being said, being able to scratch myself without making myself look like I was... hurt somehow. That also being said, I'm too used to wearing sweatshirts in all weather now DUE to having to cover up such things to... be uncomfortable wearing a sweater in the middle of summer anymore.

5) I didn't come out to myself until first year university. Either that, or my sexuality changed then. I do believe that sexualities can be fluid to some degree, due to this.
My current feeling is more or less... to quote my Tamaki-muse (I don't know, my muses can be articulate sometimes!) "Why limit love when it can come from all angles?" Love shouldn't have to do with gender, love should deal with love.
>.> that being said, I fail at romantic love hopelessly. Or at least finding an SO. My romantic history is all of one week long. And I'm still good friends with said ex.

6) I feel odd in that I can say... I right now do not want to be a teacher, but I'm glad I'm in the program I'm in.
When I was applying to teacher's college, I saw so many people who had just gone through school at various institutions say "don't". (Interestingly enough, one of them was a twenty-something Otaku who like me has chosen that teaching is not for her right now.)
However, I would not say "don't" to anyone. I would recommend the program I'm in in a heartbeat. It's intense, but also intensely supportive. Even if part of me can't wait to be done, and part of me feels that some of the things we talk about aren't relevant to me because I don't plan to move into teaching next year, the fact that these things are even talked about shows how supportive the profs are. We talk about resumes and cover letters. My profs talk about bad times and good times, and can be frank sometimes.
The head of the practicum portion of the course knows us all by name, and talks to us. He gave me tips when I was doing badly, and actually asked what the school could do to help me for my third time out. They care. They want us to succeed. And so they care for us, and about us.
And so I would DEFINITELY recommend this program to someone else who wants to go into teaching. Because it's a positive atmosphere, and a supportive atmosphere. And it's great.
And I do think that I will bring things out from here that will help me even if I never go into teaching ever. And maybe I will. Who knows? I certainly don't. I just know it's not where I'm meant to be right now. And that's okay.

7) I am a very cuddly person among my friends. And sometimes very touchy-feely. Part of me wonders how that will work when (trying to stay positive and not saying "if") I have an SO. Will I make them too jealous by cuddling with others? Will I slowly start phasing that out and just cuddle with them? ...I often wish I had someone I could cuddle with on a day-to-day basis. I need more hugs in my life, for sure.
However, there are also people I'm comfortable with cuddling with, and people who I'm not. And it's not necessarily anything that they've done... I just... some people make me tense, and some people I can relax with. I don't have any idea what it is that makes this possible. >.>

8) I went through a suicidal period when I was in highschool. And yet, I never once wanted to kill myself. It scared me so much that I was constantly thinking of ways that I could kill myself, because I knew I would never want to follow through. And death terrifies me. (The afterlife is one of those questions to which I can never get a difinitive answer, and I really don't feel comfortable around corpses... I have problems going to funeral homes.)
The question that kept on plaguing my mind during that time is "Would anyone actually care?" I know the answer is yes, but I don't know if I was satisfied then, with my family being the main group that would.
Honestly, sometimes I still ask that question, and am unsure of the answer.

9) Before Digimon, it was my sister that liked anime things. Not that there was a ton of it, but she loved Hello Kitty, Kerope, Dragonball, etc. And I didn't at all.
And then Digimon came. And my sister was watching it during piano lessons (one would be in the basement watching TV during the other's lesson) and I came down... it was the episode where Tai and Matt are going to be shot by Angemon and Angewomon's arrows. And I was instantly hooked.
Now my sister has no use for anime at all. And I'm a total otaku.

10) I have numerous musicals memorized or half-memorized. And there's a long list of songs or musicals or... random things that I would love to perform.
And some costumes from western shows and Takarazuka that I would absolutely LOVE to do, eventually.
The problem with most of these things is that I can't do them alone, and I don't know many people who would even be interested in doing these in any way, shape, or form.
>.> maybe I just want an excuse to sing IC. (I also do character songs. Which is pointless because no one wants to hear someone singing their image song while in cosplay. But I do it anyway. XD)


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